for the Stonewall Inn, New York, 1969
That summer was an oven on self-clean—
beyond hot. The cops raided clubs for weeks.
Huddled, frightened men and men and women
and women and human and human held
at the end of a nightstick in contempt,
being held in the arms of a lover
in a brick-faced bar on Christopher Street
the night they’d had enough of this treatment.
We don’t call it a riot. No. Riot,
noun: violent disturbance of the peace
by a crowd. Like the peace of gathering
with your friends and family in a home
away from home, the peace of the jukebox
playing Let the Sun Shine, a trusted friend
behind the bar mixing you a cocktail,
of dancing free and uninhibited
when the crowds march in to bash down the door,
bash in your skull, bash-bash open the peace
hard-fought-won so you can be standing here,
unafraid for the first time in your life,
perhaps, and not the family who threw
you out on the street, not the government
who threw your card to the draft, not the men
and women who threw slurs at you walking
down that same street, not the church who threw fire
and brimstone proclamations, nor these thugs
marching heavy-booted with their badges
and balled fists can take it away from you.
Each brick of this place is home, each bottle
is nourishment. Fingers close around them
reflexively. And given fight or flight,
when you’ve always picked the latter—and where
has that ever gotten you, anyway?—
fingers close around bricks and bottles, words
of defiance bubble up to your lips
from somewhere deep in the boiling cauldron
of your belly, you find the voice to say
No. We don’t call this a riot. Call this
being cornered and lashing out. Call this
being pushed to the brink. Past it. Call this
resisting systematic oppression.
Call this a rubber band stretched to snapping.
Call this a blessing that I can stand here
fifty-five years later unmolested
and read you this beneath a flag flying
my colors—all of our colors. No one
can wrest a rainbow from the sky. Call this
a memorial for everyone
whose sacrifice has gifted us the life
and freedom to stand here, proud, and call this
what it really is. It’s not a riot—
it’s rebellion. And it’s not finished
until we can all stand here, together,
hand holding hand, and simply call it love.