The last man here had a habit of taking what cannot be taken:
my girl, he’d say, my baby. He narrowed his eyes—
mice scattered in the walls.
The man before him hid cans
in high cabinets. A downstairs neighbor
slipped notes beneath the doorway—
Just yell help, they said.
Police respond quickly in this part of town.
Then there’s Brother who doesn’t come home at Christmas.
The girl he swears he doesn’t know
in my same sweatshirt—hers stained with
creekwater, buckshot, blood.
In the city where I was born, bullets crawl up
blocks like brush fire, spent casings end up in the water—
children’s veins grow heavy, and during dinner,
police come to our doors looking for men
who know all of us by name.
Now—tucked between my hip bone and my ribcage—
I’m growing another body.
The lady who does the ultrasounds says
it’ll be a girl like me.
I’m trying to teach her there are men
who sleep at three in the morning
and men who can’t,
but that a door is something that opens—
I’m trying to teach her that even a deadbolt
is still a kind of hope.