My youngest brother takes the garbage out with both hands.
His face is full of acne ripe enough to pluck.
He could burst at any moment. I miss him all the time but especially
when he is right in front of me.
We haven’t left the house in four days.
This virus is dancing, my dad says over the phone.
I count the syllables until he hangs up. Then, I sit in the
frilly backyard with the other dogs and stare at the
sky’s timid girl face, the same one I used to wear.
Years ago, a man’s hand was like light against my face
which I thought made me the deer.
When I turned nineteen, I figured out I had eleven months to die.
But I keep coming back. A red ant avoids crawling onto my hand.
The wind whistles. When my sister was my age, she slurped
iced coffee and never insisted on being heard.
Last month, I got paid two hundred dollars to write about her death.
The neon alphabet that lives in my mouth never lets me down.
A fallen tree knows it has fallen even if nobody else does.
It is a vision of self-respect. I watch a distant plane fly across
the horizon like a pair of scissors. My hair lifts behind me like a flag.
I live in so many different places and each one hurts.