Baptized
When he eased me into the river
I was supposed to feel God coming clean in me
but all I could see was the black kitten
So many things that still feel new
are old, and that’s the way it goes.
Doubt—dirt—blood—there is no bliss in the house of God.
How do you keep your shit together? You piss in the house of God.
He walks and does not walk. To hear him, not ears but fear.
To see? Wear fire. Bullet and ballad kiss in the house of God.
Wednesday and Saturday evenings
were like winter all year round,
the chill air chased cigarette smoke
and stale beer smell across the concrete stands …
A chrysanthemum petal makes me think of a swapped prisoner. What was given up for this beauty pressing against the