for Taylor Mitchell, 1990–2009
If she loved anything more than music,
her mother said, it was nature. That’s why
she wouldn’t have wanted her killers killed
for doing what coyotes do.
I thought
of that young folk singer, hiking alone
on Cape Breton Island, as they charged
toward me, churning up the snow, their eyes
on fire with the setting sun. Just then
a rabbit erupted from a swale between us
and juked around my boots. One coyote
followed left, the other right, so close
I could have stroked their fur.
So they were real,
those phantoms whose frantic yipping I heard
late at night in counterpoint to sirens,
as though that wail of human pain drove them
to hysteria. My island was no Cape Breton,
just a scruffy patch of county land
lapped on all sides by city. Not wilderness,
by any means, but not quite urban either,
if animals like these could live there
undetected.
They were pacing around
a pile of brush when I caught up with them,
probing with paw and muzzle, too intent
to notice me. I was luckier in my
coyotes than she was, the day her love
of nature went unrequited.
Selfishly,
perhaps, I save my love for those who love
me back. Yet I would hate to lose the little
that remains of wildness where I live.
I left them to their hunt, returning home
by streets that seemed no longer so familiar.